Bend or Break

Sometimes it feels like this:

I've lost everything, and am in limbo. Its all thrown up in the air, will I ever get back to the ground? Will I ever find 'normal' again? Will the wind ever come again? The lines that get me most are 'I've lost the line between sky and sea' and 'I've lost the line between her and me/ My troubles are gone if the wind ever comes for me'. I'm struck at how well this song describes some of my deepest feelings. I've been hit by a hurricane, I'm in the air, tumbling and I don't know how to get back down, how to land safely. As the song states, I will break or I will bend, I can see her waiting for me there, but how do I get down, will the wind ever come for me? I don't think I really do it justice. I cannot express how I feel fully. But this song surely helps.

Another help is, yet again, another song by the Fray:

Hits a few cords pretty good here too. What I mostly get from this the longing I feel for getting better.

'I've been going so long
I can barely say
All I know is now I want to stay
Has it been too long since I went away?'

Has it been too long, will you turn to me, can I even come back or am I completely unwanted, hated, so that returning just causes pain. Do I want to return? Have I learned too much to stay? I can barely say!

Those are just a few thoughts of my melancholy tonight.